Hey. It’s me, again.
Today I’d like to share a little bit more about myself so you get to know me better.
I was born and raised in Minnesota. Had a crush on my (now) husband from the day I laid eyes on him as a 12 year old. I graduated high school and got married in the same summer. I have lived in Oklahoma, Texas, Guadalajara, Missouri, and South Dakota. I’ve visited Africa, South America, and numerous places in Mexico and the United States. I was a music major in college but I didn’t graduate. I sang professionally on stage for a Christian organization that web-streams live around the world 24/7 for 5 years. I had my first child at 24, my second at 26, and hope to have a third somewhere around 28. I love hair, makeup, and fashion and ran a fashion blog (just for fun) for a couple of years. I also love crafting, cooking, and tea parties and excel at all three. I’m an avid reader and sometimes get lost in a novel to the detriment of my household duties. I also love giving (and receiving) gifts. I love eating; all sorts of food, but I’m kind of a food snob, I like good food. I love sour candy, it’s a huge weakness of mine. I hate hot dogs, velveeta cheese, mushy grapes, sweet and sour chicken, and Bologna, or at least I think I would if I ever tried it.
As for my personality, I’m honest, as previously stated, but I’m also a melancholy personality with a penchant towards pessimism. I am more introvert than extrovert so I need my alone time to recharge by myself. I have very few friends, but lots of acquaintances. I’m organized and love writings lists. I’m not (usually) a frazzled mommy; I’m normally very on top of everything. I tend to freak out a lot in my head. I can be very anxious and have an over-active imagination that loves to run wild at times. I am a scardy-cat; I hate the dark, fear loosing anyone close to me, think Jaws is lurking at the bottom of every swimming pool, and am deathly afraid of a zombie apocalypse (and yes, I have hypothesized about it in my head on numerous occassion and basically decided I would be one of the first to die). I have a lot of confidence and know that I am beautiful. Even so, I am always worried about other people’s opinion; some days I do better than others but a lot of times I worry way too much what other people will think of me. I love approval, which is probably part of why I’m undertaking this whole blog/Instagram thing at all. I hate being corrected and will dwell on even the slightest reprimand until I’m almost paralyzed by it. I’m very compassionate and sensitive and although I don’t always show it, I cry easily. I get angry far too quickly and I hold a grudge way too long. I have a hard time forgiving people when they’ve hurt me. I’m a perfectionist and place very unrealistic standards on myself and probably by defaults others.
Sheesh….Well this all just makes me sound like a lovely person doesn’t it? I’m sure I could go on and on like this until you practically hate me because I sound like such a yucky person, but really, I think I’m pretty average. Sadly though, if it weren’t for Jesus, I know I’d be going to hell. Even now I still freak out and wonder if I’m really saved or not. When I look at all the yuck in my life and how quickly all these sins pile up into an insurmountable mountain I wonder if anyone would actually let me into heaven. I mean if I was standing at the door looking at myself I’d be like “Not a chance Lady!”. Thank goodness I’m not the one calling the shots.
Oh yeah, did I mention that I love Jesus and I believe that He died for my sins, rose from the dead on the third day, and is the only way to heaven? I also believe 100% that the world was created by God and that He is in control. I also know the the Holy Spirit is living and active and speaks to each of us if we’ll listen. And no, I’m not here to shove the gospel down your throat or try to evangelize you, but for the sake of honesty you need to know who I am and what I believe. I have been a Christian all my life so it is a large piece of who I am. I not here to debate theology or condemn you for what you believe; this blog is about honesty not hate, so if you want to be a hater kindly take it elsewhere please.
Okay, well, here I am; do you still like me? If not, that’s okay, I’m just going to keep doing me and you can keep doing you.